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dexfarkinI'm very ill, which is always the catalyst for stupid posts. Bear with me.
My mother has basically disowned me, because I haven't called in my 80 hour week. Justified, but at the same point, I feel the fires of injustice there. Do I beg for forgiveness or hold to personal respect? I'm not sure which is worth me. Let's be honest, my step-father has suffered major surgery and my cousin is in the burn unit. Part of me says the bigger man eats crow and takes the abuse by calling and abasing myself. Is self-respect worth more?
What else?
I find a hatred for fanfic politics, mostly due to lack of respect. That, and a total dislocation from fanfiction. I feel bad, but since my time puts me outside of the normal range of conversion, I feel very dislocated. Do I still have a place in this communiety? Or is it time to pass all elements on to a proper sucessor and stay alway from from the newbies? Lot's of questions today.
Let's see the answers
My mother has basically disowned me, because I haven't called in my 80 hour week. Justified, but at the same point, I feel the fires of injustice there. Do I beg for forgiveness or hold to personal respect? I'm not sure which is worth me. Let's be honest, my step-father has suffered major surgery and my cousin is in the burn unit. Part of me says the bigger man eats crow and takes the abuse by calling and abasing myself. Is self-respect worth more?
What else?
I find a hatred for fanfic politics, mostly due to lack of respect. That, and a total dislocation from fanfiction. I feel bad, but since my time puts me outside of the normal range of conversion, I feel very dislocated. Do I still have a place in this communiety? Or is it time to pass all elements on to a proper sucessor and stay alway from from the newbies? Lot's of questions today.
Let's see the answers
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Date: 2002-11-27 10:18 pm (UTC)2. Honestly? If you can look closely at it all and find things worth staying for. Then stay for those and ignore the rest, particularly the politics. Politics is always 90% bullshit, anyway.
And if you have to take a break every so often to get things into perspective, then do that too. Don't feel you need to do something. Mate, you've done more then your fair share over the years. You don't get a lot of thanks in that sometimes. But I, for one, have seen some of the craziness you've gone through to do things for this community. You deserve thanks for everything you've done.
I hope this is sounding coherent. But yeah, do what you want to do. Don't worry about the community.