Sick

[dexfarkin]

I'm very ill, which is always the catalyst for stupid posts. Bear with me.

My mother has basically disowned me, because I haven't called in my 80 hour week. Justified, but at the same point, I feel the fires of injustice there. Do I beg for forgiveness or hold to personal respect? I'm not sure which is worth me. Let's be honest, my step-father has suffered major surgery and my cousin is in the burn unit. Part of me says the bigger man eats crow and takes the abuse by calling and abasing myself. Is self-respect worth more?

What else?

I find a hatred for fanfic politics, mostly due to lack of respect. That, and a total dislocation from fanfiction. I feel bad, but since my time puts me outside of the normal range of conversion, I feel very dislocated. Do I still have a place in this communiety? Or is it time to pass all elements on to a proper sucessor and stay alway from from the newbies? Lot's of questions today.

Let's see the answers

Comments

[foible.livejournal.com]

1) Chiming in with yet another "call your Mom" vote. Yeah, the pride may suffer, but in the long run you will thank yourself. Who knows? Given the stress she is currently under, she probably didn't mean to be quite to harsh.

2) Can't help much there, being well and truly retired, myself. Best I can suggest is that you focus your energies on what you enjoy in fanfic... ie. the stories, and the friends you've made. As for the rest, I'd just try to let it slide on past.