Sick

[dexfarkin]

I'm very ill, which is always the catalyst for stupid posts. Bear with me.

My mother has basically disowned me, because I haven't called in my 80 hour week. Justified, but at the same point, I feel the fires of injustice there. Do I beg for forgiveness or hold to personal respect? I'm not sure which is worth me. Let's be honest, my step-father has suffered major surgery and my cousin is in the burn unit. Part of me says the bigger man eats crow and takes the abuse by calling and abasing myself. Is self-respect worth more?

What else?

I find a hatred for fanfic politics, mostly due to lack of respect. That, and a total dislocation from fanfiction. I feel bad, but since my time puts me outside of the normal range of conversion, I feel very dislocated. Do I still have a place in this communiety? Or is it time to pass all elements on to a proper sucessor and stay alway from from the newbies? Lot's of questions today.

Let's see the answers

Comments

[sevenall.livejournal.com]

1) Call your mom. Because you _are_ the bigger person and you won't be sorry you did that. I know how you feel, believe me. My parents changed the locks on me when I was sixteen.

2) I don't know the answer to that. I'm not much into fanfic politics myself and generally try to avoid them. Plus, the last time I felt as part of the community was at DexCon. But I think that if anyone has a place in the community, it's you.