Sick

[dexfarkin]

I'm very ill, which is always the catalyst for stupid posts. Bear with me.

My mother has basically disowned me, because I haven't called in my 80 hour week. Justified, but at the same point, I feel the fires of injustice there. Do I beg for forgiveness or hold to personal respect? I'm not sure which is worth me. Let's be honest, my step-father has suffered major surgery and my cousin is in the burn unit. Part of me says the bigger man eats crow and takes the abuse by calling and abasing myself. Is self-respect worth more?

What else?

I find a hatred for fanfic politics, mostly due to lack of respect. That, and a total dislocation from fanfiction. I feel bad, but since my time puts me outside of the normal range of conversion, I feel very dislocated. Do I still have a place in this communiety? Or is it time to pass all elements on to a proper sucessor and stay alway from from the newbies? Lot's of questions today.

Let's see the answers

Comments

[domarzione.livejournal.com]

1) Joining the chorus - suck it up and call and let her bitch and rail. At you, at the doctors, at anything else that crosses her vision. On the personal level, divine brownie points are achieved this way, plus it's one less thing she can hold over your head later. On the grander level, you'll be making everyone on that end's life a little easier by taking some of the pressure out of the pressure cooker.

2) No diving headfirst into the shallow end of the tar pit. Speaking as someone who is neither dino nor newbie... I'd hate the thought of the community without the most veteran voices - yours and a whole lot of others. If perhaps the group elders have been overgenerous in welcoming in the next wave, accidentally dropping a key to the kingdom in along with the 'welcome aboard' casserole... get the damned thing back, why don't you? If the problem is effusive praise for mediocre fic setting a bad trend and lowering the bar, write a better fic to straighten them out. Wield some of that power and influence you've earned - show off your writing chops and remind people of why you got the rep in the first place. Veteran writing brings out veteran comments which brings out more veteran writing which gets people to do more productive things with their hands - like type - than sit on them and kvell. Equilibrium shifted.