Sick

[dexfarkin]

I'm very ill, which is always the catalyst for stupid posts. Bear with me.

My mother has basically disowned me, because I haven't called in my 80 hour week. Justified, but at the same point, I feel the fires of injustice there. Do I beg for forgiveness or hold to personal respect? I'm not sure which is worth me. Let's be honest, my step-father has suffered major surgery and my cousin is in the burn unit. Part of me says the bigger man eats crow and takes the abuse by calling and abasing myself. Is self-respect worth more?

What else?

I find a hatred for fanfic politics, mostly due to lack of respect. That, and a total dislocation from fanfiction. I feel bad, but since my time puts me outside of the normal range of conversion, I feel very dislocated. Do I still have a place in this communiety? Or is it time to pass all elements on to a proper sucessor and stay alway from from the newbies? Lot's of questions today.

Let's see the answers

Comments

[maeve77.livejournal.com]

I know it sounds like a horrible thing to have to do, but call your mom. You don't have to completely debase yourself. Just explain that you had a monster week at work, that you were dead on your feet, etc. and that you wouldn't willingly avoid calling her. If I know moms, what she really wants is for you to reassure her that you love her.

As far as the politics thing goes, I'm way too much of a newbie to take much of a stance on anything. If I could have my preference, everyone would look to people like you, Rossi, and company for guidance. There's definitely something to be said for experience.

I'm sorry to hear that things aren't going well for you. Stay strong! ***zen hugs***