Sick

[dexfarkin]

I'm very ill, which is always the catalyst for stupid posts. Bear with me.

My mother has basically disowned me, because I haven't called in my 80 hour week. Justified, but at the same point, I feel the fires of injustice there. Do I beg for forgiveness or hold to personal respect? I'm not sure which is worth me. Let's be honest, my step-father has suffered major surgery and my cousin is in the burn unit. Part of me says the bigger man eats crow and takes the abuse by calling and abasing myself. Is self-respect worth more?

What else?

I find a hatred for fanfic politics, mostly due to lack of respect. That, and a total dislocation from fanfiction. I feel bad, but since my time puts me outside of the normal range of conversion, I feel very dislocated. Do I still have a place in this communiety? Or is it time to pass all elements on to a proper sucessor and stay alway from from the newbies? Lot's of questions today.

Let's see the answers

Comments

Hrm.

[frito-kal.livejournal.com]

1. Give them a call. Pride can take a hit and keep going - more so if you know that you're doing something for the right reasons. Self-respect isn't such a simple thing that taking the blame for something that isn't solely your fault will crush it. If you know that you had extenuating circumstancts, you are still a decent person, even if you have to apoligize and act the part of the offender.

2. Politics will wax and wane - I take the approach that fanfic should be taken for what it is - fun. If the politics - or the people who are deep into the politics can't remove themselves from what is ultimatly an unimportant hobby - then something is wrong with them, not the hobby itself.

Enjoy the stories, enjoy the company of people in the community. Everything else is secondary. Silly politics won't detract from the fact that you are a fantastic writer, who has produced stories that have entertained a large number of people - and it won't stop people from writing stories that will entertain you.

The silly people who think that they are being ghettoized over FANFICTION are just that - silly. People who sit and worry about any part of this that doesn't actually come over and bite them in the real world have made too much of a big deal about things. (Myself included at times.)

Relax. Go read something fun, or write something fun. Or help me beta something demented. (You know, I had these questions about writing dialouge for John Constantine I had for you...) (Yes, I'm a selfish ass.) -

Ultimatly my advice to you about fanfiction is - enjoy the good parts, ignore the shitheads who make petty parts bigger than good parts, and have fun. That's what its for.