Call your mom. Consider it like this- you recognize that it takes the bigger man to call her, and choose to be that man. Pride doesn't take a lot of strength, but love does. Don't be ashamed of yourself for it, and don't see it as adversarial or giving in. Be strong, my brother, and put up with the shit. :) It's worth it in the long run.
Re: Fanfic alienation.
Wish I could help you there, but the truth is, I'm feeling much the same way. The politics just make me ill, and I'm often finding myself wondering what am I still doing here. I'm not ready to go, not yet, but sometimes I wonder why.
I will say that as far as I know you still have very much a central place in the community. If *anyone* does, you do.
Hmmmm.
Call your mom. Consider it like this- you recognize that it takes the bigger man to call her, and choose to be that man. Pride doesn't take a lot of strength, but love does. Don't be ashamed of yourself for it, and don't see it as adversarial or giving in. Be strong, my brother, and put up with the shit. :) It's worth it in the long run.
Re: Fanfic alienation.
Wish I could help you there, but the truth is, I'm feeling much the same way. The politics just make me ill, and I'm often finding myself wondering what am I still doing here. I'm not ready to go, not yet, but sometimes I wonder why.
I will say that as far as I know you still have very much a central place in the community. If *anyone* does, you do.